The past should stay the past

Okay obviously something is wrong with me I just know it I'm having the same thoughts over and over again I am plague by these thoughts and damn it I don't want it anymore I know denying it only makes it worse but what other way is there? For those who are confuse I'm talking about my past sweetheart Jason and how I can't seem to get the man out of my mind clearly there is something mentally wrong with me I just know it.

Yesterday I was getting pissed of because people kept asking questions on my http://ask.fm/LeapingTreeFrog (which you guys can see it and ask me anything you want) saying I have nice lips can I have a kiss blah blah blah and I tweet about it on my twitter and Jason texts me saying I have a new boyfriend teasing and such but then he like and I quote "Calm down sweetheart and let me kiss them sweet lips of your ;) aha" HOW THE FUCK DO I NOT MELT AT THAT!!!!!!! 

I know I should fall for some crap like that for a guy but me and this guy have a long history together its not something easy to forget and I know my friends are feed up listening to me bitch about the same situation but I can't fucking help its the way I feel and only because he was my first kiss I have a connection with him -__- fuck me right.

I don't know what to do anymore he has a girlfriend yet he flirts with me and tells me he wants me I just think Jason doesn't know how to be with me cause deep down I feel like he truely does like me or in love with me? no but at least likes me he just doesn't know how to show it to me or he doesn't want to show me.

Either way it would seem I am fucked.