Good bye Jason

You know that awesome moment when your talking to the guy your totally in love with and thought wow I can see myself with this guy? Nope not me see I thought Jason was the guy for me but NO HE WAS NOT I made myself believe he was the one for me boy was I stupid! because honestly he's a prick a pervert prick and I hate him now :)

Hahaha okay okay I don't hate him I just stop talking to the prick so that has made me in a good mood too yeah I am a little sad about not talking to this guy because we use to close then we started to hate each other but always had a soft part for each other still do well I still do I don't know about him he's a weird guy to know so don't ask me.

So two weeks ago I text him if he had my friend Edgar number because he plays soccer with him so I ask and he's like "sadly yes" like I don't care if your sad about it give me the dam number! so I ask for it and said your my life saver then he ask why at first I didn't know if he was asking "Why I want the number? or Why he is the life saver?" so I thought he was asking why I want the number so I went off him and said "Why does it matter if I want the number just give me the number!" and that set him off and him making fun of me and its safe to say I am never talking to the boy ever again!!!

So I know this is like the thousand times I said I will never talk to him but seriously he cross the line and I am pissed off yes I am a little depress never talking to Jason again but its for the best because I can't be friends with someone who is a total dick head and I want to make this friendship but it can't when we have history with each other and shared a kiss you can't be friends with someone you kissed and like it just not possible but hey if you can more power to you.

I would nothing more than say it to Jason Lopez face I would love to scream all this in his face but I don't think I should yell it aha I just want to get it off my chest and just say it instead text message him what I feel but I can't do that either since I erase his number and I will not go on Facebook to look it up I refuse to talk to him and acknowledge him now what done is done and now...

I Am Moving On From My High School Crush Jason Lopez, thanks for sealing my first kiss thanks for giving me attention I never got before and thank you for being a friend when I needed you and I am so sorry we lost our friendship and fade away I just hope the very best for you. But thanks asshole for ruining my first chances of love now I feel like love is a myth made by crazy chicks. 

Am I actually the mean girl?

One thing that is bugging is the things I have done lately I don't think but I feel guilt and its weird super weird considering I am a person without caring about much but since I am no longer friends with Adrianna it had me thinking was I the wrong one? I did talk shit about my best friend behind her back I was the one who open my mouth yet I don't care but in the back of my mind I am still caring...I mean when I look back I have lost a lot of girl friends over stupid stuff like my first best friend Nuviaa I stop being her friend because I was sick of tired of every guy looking at her and not me and I push her away now with Jamie I was mad she went after Alan when she dated his friend then talk shit about her.

Then I talk crap about Adrianna, does that make me a monster? a monster who cannot have friends because of her own selfish needs? am I actually jealous of Adrianna? in the end only I know the answer is and the answer is...I Am A Monster. Now I think about it I was being selfish and cruel because I envy another and not try to make friendship work in the end I can't fix my friendship with Adrianna what's done is done.

But still in the back of my mind I feel this guilt this big ass guilt for pushing away my friends and not caring about them in the end but I have think they weren't the best either they didn't even try to talk to me but ignore me so I ignore them and refuse to make it work Yes my pride has yet again made me lose another friend yet I still think this one little sentence.

I am a monster.

Fake Ass Motherf***ering Friends :)

As right now I am no longer friends with my so called best friend hell I don't even consider her a best friend she really shouldn't have any friends with her nasty ass attitude which make me so tired of her but things end for a reason and the reason is yes I did talk about her but in joking matter but to her it wasn't a joking matter if was a insult and instead coming to me and trying to work out the problem she completely ignores unfriend me on facebook really your going to unfriend me on facebook WOW I hope you feel better about yourself!

Anyway the point of this situation is that instead being a cool awesome trust worthy best friend Adrianna suppose to be she wasn't she didn't try to talk to me but ignore and refuse to pull the stick out her butt because of her stubbornness and then she has her little sister unfriend on facebook too? wow you are awesome and so mature like really your going to act so immature and childish over that then go for it!

I don't care anymore I stop caring to be honest I stop caring about her and her problem I stop caring if were friends or not I am not crawling back to her and try to work everything out when I don't want to work things I want her to leave me alone now because she is no longer a friend so why should I care about her? why should I care about ungrateful shitty friend when I have other friends who are more nicer than her?! I am just saying my world does not revolves around her.

On a happy note since we are not friends no more drama with her no more seeing her sucking faces with her cheating boyfriend who will probably cheat on her again and get her pregnant and have ten thousands children then he'll leave her and find his next victim YET she claims he is a change man aahahahahahaha okay and I'm a unicorn!!!!

So I am happy as right now cause I am a drama free girl here :D     

Friends bugging

Note I change my typo xD

Anyway so lately I've been very bored with my friends like honestly I am really bored and it sucks because I'm a Gemini and us Geminis need to be entertain all the time or we lost focus and interest in the people we talk too. My friends are boring the hell out of me!!! like really one is sucking faces with her boyfriend like no tomorrow like come on its not the end of the world give her room to breathe for crap's sake!

My second friend..well she just annoying to be truthful I didn't really didn't see this first but now I see how annoying she is and dam do I want just to slap her and tell her to shut the hell up I really think she likes the sound of her voice because all she does is talk and talk and talk like god damn it shut up! but no the prick still keeps talking. I glad to hear she has to go in independent study that also shows she's a dumb ass I'm glad I won't see her in my third period anymore THANK YOU JESUS!!! 

And the other friends who don't have personalities and that bored me are boring to be honest and yes they are boring they don't talk just follow around like a lost puppy like come on be your own person right now! have a life stop being a robot and following me around and not talking your pissing me off with you not talking! then when got another friend who will only talk about herself and her problems like I get it I'll listen but if you keep going I'm going to ignore your annoying ass!

Yes it may seem I'm the bad friend and I don't deserve my friends BUT just think for a second if you were in my shoes what would do and don't tell me you will do something different because after a certain amount of time you will crack and be like me annoyed as hell with your friends just keep an open mind when it comes down to this, I'm a good friend I'll be there for you support you but push my buttons too much and I will be the worse freaking friend possible.

 That saying Hunger Games is on Netflix you know what I'm watching when I get home and get pizza and cookies and chill because its Friday THANKS JESUS!!!

Note: I'm really religious and sorry if I use Jesus name in vain or something so no one better be butt hurt about using the lord in vain ahaha that sounds funny.

Some Friends

You know what's the the most annoying part of high school? having sucky friends, like honestly I probably have the most suckiest friends in the world like really, so for an example how much my friends suck I will tell you even though its embarrassing that's okay its not like I know any you guys who read my blog so that's okay. So like I was saying my Vivi is not the bestest friend she's actually the worse best friend ever!! well I don't even consider her my best friend anymore, so like I was saying Monday was a bad day I got sick and it was making me tired and yucky so in my 3rd period I went to sleep and I heard people laughing in the background so I woke and the TA in the class said aloud to Vivi "Why did you tweet Liz smells?" he got up and sat next to me and came in my personal space and took a big sniff of me and said I don't smell but smell like clean clothing then I tweeted "do I really smell" then Vivi replies yes I smell like armpit and I need body spray -__-

Really?! because I asked a group juniors in my TA to smell me and they all said the same thing I smell like clean clothes so its really pissed me off Vivi was being a prick and putting me on twitter where everyone can see it I felt embarrass and stupid I mean she wouldn't like it if I tweet about her she would get all butt hurt so that's why I'm ignoring her until she says sorry but that did bother me and hurt my feeling so of course I'm going to ignore her ass.