I suppose I'm being a cry baby right now and maybe I am a cry baby always complaining, I don't know where my head is sometimes and confuse half the time well that just I'm confuse half the time yet I still get stuff done. Not only am I feeling confused but very pissed off I don't know I just fine myself getting mad at everything and everyone, like everyone is pissing me off for no reason ugh sometimes I think I'm bipolar I'm probably with my mood swings.
I just heard today one of the kids is doing an article on the Michael the guy who was killed from a school bus the same guy who was my friend...I don't know why but I felt so mad when they said they wanted to do an article of his death it made me so mad and sad hell I think I'll talk to Mr. Grace about maybe I can do since I knew the guy yet I don't want to because that would meant I had to talk to his teammates again and seeing them yesterday at the candle lighting made me see how his death has effected him so much.
I don't want to do this article of Michael but in a way I feel like if someone was going to do this it should be me but its a heart breaking thing for me because the thought of Michael still haunts me still makes me so depress that I don't even want to talk about it but I know you have to talk about in order to get over it but still it makes me nervous because I really don't know how to deal with death...I don't think anyone knows how to deal with death but everyone deals with death in a different way.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Why take your ex back?
I understand you love your ex and still have feeling for him. Oh so why did you guys break up? the answer oh he cheated on me....Really!?!?! come on are you serious? ahaha I'm sorry but yes your stupid thinking to go back to the guy who broke your heart, if he did it once what makes you think he won't do it again? once a cheated always a cheater.
I know this because my first love was a douche bag and a womanizer I feel in love he fell in love with someone else and kept me thinking he liked me. I was so stupid I would go see him even though he had a girlfriend I kissed him even though he was dating some other girl. Yes that makes me a harlot I admit I was stupid and in love with the dude I wanted to just to be with him.
Anyway the point is I got tired of him kissing me even though he had a girlfriend I was tired of being used by this guy and I moved on I don't let his words control me anymore because his words uses me melt and fall more in love with him not it just pisses me off.
So to my good friend Adriana who has taken her boyfriend back after he cheated on her 3 times now once not twice but three times and who knows he if didn't cheat more than that! but no she wants to be with him and I don't care I warn her he was going to break her heart once more but I can't do anything anymore but sit and watch.
Its sad but its gonna happen whether she likes it or not just don't expect me to comfort you when the time comes because I told you this was going to happen he's a pig DUH!!
Comment and tell me what you would do in my shoes
I know this because my first love was a douche bag and a womanizer I feel in love he fell in love with someone else and kept me thinking he liked me. I was so stupid I would go see him even though he had a girlfriend I kissed him even though he was dating some other girl. Yes that makes me a harlot I admit I was stupid and in love with the dude I wanted to just to be with him.
Anyway the point is I got tired of him kissing me even though he had a girlfriend I was tired of being used by this guy and I moved on I don't let his words control me anymore because his words uses me melt and fall more in love with him not it just pisses me off.
So to my good friend Adriana who has taken her boyfriend back after he cheated on her 3 times now once not twice but three times and who knows he if didn't cheat more than that! but no she wants to be with him and I don't care I warn her he was going to break her heart once more but I can't do anything anymore but sit and watch.
Its sad but its gonna happen whether she likes it or not just don't expect me to comfort you when the time comes because I told you this was going to happen he's a pig DUH!!
Comment and tell me what you would do in my shoes
Friday, March 15, 2013
True Love Actually Real?
I know a lot of people say they know what is love blah blah honestly I don't think anyone knows what love is -_- they say they do but they don't aha well maybe some people do?
Monique Ferrel I think I know this girl since grade school and everything I know she's a great friend weird odd and sweet in her own way but in all in all I think Monique does know what love is.
Monique has told me she's been seeing her current boyfriend Austin and how she talks about him you can honestly see how much she adores him and the love in her eyes that she really loves him and its so sweet like I'm happy for her.
So apparently their love was tested keep in mind they been dating since Monique was in 5th grade they had their ups and downs and always found a way to stay together and work things out, so like I was saying their love was tested on Tuesday she told me how they broke it off because Austin needs help and was going to his mom to seek her help.
Knowing he has to move they broke up I think but today Friday at snack Monique looked happy and she told me he had came to her house to seek her back wanting her she says she doesn't want to be with anyone else but him he feels the same and decided not to move but stay with her.
I don't know about you but I find that so so so awesome, it just shows their are people out there who actually has a heart and loves their own beloved yeah they get tested from daily life but those things only makes them stronger and for sure I think the bond between Monique and Austin is strong and I willing to bet I'll be going to their wedding :D
Mo mo deserve it :)
Monique Ferrel I think I know this girl since grade school and everything I know she's a great friend weird odd and sweet in her own way but in all in all I think Monique does know what love is.
Monique has told me she's been seeing her current boyfriend Austin and how she talks about him you can honestly see how much she adores him and the love in her eyes that she really loves him and its so sweet like I'm happy for her.
So apparently their love was tested keep in mind they been dating since Monique was in 5th grade they had their ups and downs and always found a way to stay together and work things out, so like I was saying their love was tested on Tuesday she told me how they broke it off because Austin needs help and was going to his mom to seek her help.
Knowing he has to move they broke up I think but today Friday at snack Monique looked happy and she told me he had came to her house to seek her back wanting her she says she doesn't want to be with anyone else but him he feels the same and decided not to move but stay with her.
I don't know about you but I find that so so so awesome, it just shows their are people out there who actually has a heart and loves their own beloved yeah they get tested from daily life but those things only makes them stronger and for sure I think the bond between Monique and Austin is strong and I willing to bet I'll be going to their wedding :D
Mo mo deserve it :)
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
The end..
Hmm..I don't know what to say considering I feel like a empty shell and just want to break down and cry but I won't because ugly crying isn't cute unless guys like girls who ugly cry? then I guess that's cool aha anyway I just feel like a loser apparently if I don't pass my math CAHSEE by tomorrow I'm not going to walk.. and if you can imagine how painful this is to me how hard I work my ass off in high school all to know I can't pass 8th grade math?!?!?!?!?! you can see how pissed off I am because next year there going to stop making kids take the CAHSEE so in a way I'm getting screw over. ISN'T THAT FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!! tomorrow I will do my best and take my time and do anything possible to pass but if I don't know I know for sure I will marked in my house a failure and that's even painfuller, I'm already rank low in my house and knowing I can't walk it'll just show I am a bigger loser. It sucks I'm over credits and have all my grades up and yet I won't be able to walk because of 8th grade math!!! it saddens me greatly and sends me into great depression I just want to be left alone and just try to get my crap together and hopefully just hopefully I pass....
Friday, March 8, 2013
A little problem on my hand
I understand my writing or typing isn't perfect I don't need to be told on that I also know I was once a underclassmen too but keep in mind I wasn't annoying little prick, and you know its true how some underclassmen were annoying pricks so PLEASE don't get butt hurt on my opinion and stop looking for negative things to say about my blog. Just because you were force to comment on my blog for a grade doesn't mean you have to be a prick about it :) So I would appreciate it if you would pull the stick from your butt and stop acting like cocky little pricks.
Another note since I'm here, I want you guys to know it is my opinion mine blog. You do you know that right? I can say whatever I want, and if I said something that bother well don't read my blog it is that simple, I know I thought it was difficult too but its not so save all smartass comment for yourself its easy too and I honestly don't care what you have to say unless its nice then you awesome :)
Another note since I'm here, I want you guys to know it is my opinion mine blog. You do you know that right? I can say whatever I want, and if I said something that bother well don't read my blog it is that simple, I know I thought it was difficult too but its not so save all smartass comment for yourself its easy too and I honestly don't care what you have to say unless its nice then you awesome :)
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Comment My Blog
One thing I like alot is when people comment on my blog instead of just reading it. Honestly people I want to know what your opinion is on one of my posts I mean I like knowing what other people think and right now all I think is everyone is too scared or to shy to comment my blog, I know people want their opinion come out and want to speak their mind so do that I know people are viewing my blog I CAN SEE IT!!!! I know you can see this and I want you to know I know you can see this :)
But yeah like I was saying I know there is someone out there who wants to speak their opinion and tell me what they think because for sure when I find my classmates's blog I will comment on them I'm a smartass its what I do.
But yeah like I was saying I know there is someone out there who wants to speak their opinion and tell me what they think because for sure when I find my classmates's blog I will comment on them I'm a smartass its what I do.
Things That Are Annoying To Me
People complaining, I understand people complain most of the time and I should do complain but the thing is I complain online I write everything down rather than speaking my mind because I would get into a debate with someone and let passion get in the way so I usually try to stay quiet because I learn from experience whenever I spoke up people got all butt hurt and start something with me. That's why I blog because its easy and no one gets butt hurt because I really think I'm the Queen of Complaining, I always complain about something but that just me.
Anyway back to the point before I started to tell everyone what complaining is so today I hear people having a conservation complaining about stuff I'm not going to say because anyone can read this so I don't want to give myself away who I'm talking about >=] so they're talking about blah blah and I hear them clear as light and I'm thinking to myself "Shut Up!" aha I know that sounds mean but I honestly don't want to hear you god damn conservation I'm trying to blog and you guys keep talking! I mean do you have to yell across the room to talk to each other? and I'm pretty sure no one cares what your talking about in fact their probably talking so loud to get someone attention.
Another thing I hate is attention seekers -_- I can't find anything more annoying besides my family then attention seekers and maybe harlots too aha anyway attention seekers really piss me off I get very annoying when people try to hard to get people attention like really your gonna dumb yourself down to get someone attention? You know your only making yourself look stupid and retard right? Of course you don't because you keep doing it and apparently they are stupid and retard. (NOTE: Mr. Grace stupid and retard are not bad words) I also hate harlots attention seekers too.
A harlots attention seeker is a girl who is a harlot and if you don't know what a harlot is Google it I don't have time to explain what a harlot is so sorry anyway a girl who is a harlot and throwing themselves at boys to get attention. I don't know about you but they look cheap like a girl shouldn't have to throw herself at a boy in a sexual way to get their attention I mean you can ask them stuff they like which isn't anything sexual but girls don't think and just act which is pretty sad. I just hate attention seeker in general, acting stupid and flirty isn't cute and what the hell does the guy think that's cute and just thinking "its gonna be easy to tap that" maybe that's why boys like girls like that who knows but I don't care I just complain about it :)
Anyway back to the point before I started to tell everyone what complaining is so today I hear people having a conservation complaining about stuff I'm not going to say because anyone can read this so I don't want to give myself away who I'm talking about >=] so they're talking about blah blah and I hear them clear as light and I'm thinking to myself "Shut Up!" aha I know that sounds mean but I honestly don't want to hear you god damn conservation I'm trying to blog and you guys keep talking! I mean do you have to yell across the room to talk to each other? and I'm pretty sure no one cares what your talking about in fact their probably talking so loud to get someone attention.
Another thing I hate is attention seekers -_- I can't find anything more annoying besides my family then attention seekers and maybe harlots too aha anyway attention seekers really piss me off I get very annoying when people try to hard to get people attention like really your gonna dumb yourself down to get someone attention? You know your only making yourself look stupid and retard right? Of course you don't because you keep doing it and apparently they are stupid and retard. (NOTE: Mr. Grace stupid and retard are not bad words) I also hate harlots attention seekers too.
A harlots attention seeker is a girl who is a harlot and if you don't know what a harlot is Google it I don't have time to explain what a harlot is so sorry anyway a girl who is a harlot and throwing themselves at boys to get attention. I don't know about you but they look cheap like a girl shouldn't have to throw herself at a boy in a sexual way to get their attention I mean you can ask them stuff they like which isn't anything sexual but girls don't think and just act which is pretty sad. I just hate attention seeker in general, acting stupid and flirty isn't cute and what the hell does the guy think that's cute and just thinking "its gonna be easy to tap that" maybe that's why boys like girls like that who knows but I don't care I just complain about it :)
Monday, March 4, 2013
My World Is Crashing Down
I wrote a blog about this topic but my smart self erase it so isn't that bright of me -_- I feel like a moron erasing my blog when I was suppose to erase a draft so don't judge its Monday and Monday is a really bad day for me because I like sleeping and I had to get up at 5:20 am to take a shower and get ready and I have to go to work today and my phone battery completely died and I have to wait to come in so yes today is a really bad day!!
My world is crashing down and I know "That's what every teenager says" but like come on its true for most of us we have to work hard to get somewhere in life (IT'S NOT EASY!!!!) I would love to see an adult try this for awhile to be in my shoes for 2 weeks and see what it feel to be me, because being me honestly sucks. I also know I sound like a cry baby but considering I stay quiet half the time blogging is my time to scream what I feel!
I have school drama with homework and articles and all that fun stuff and with my friends who are pissing me off more and more each day they should honestly be ashamed to say they're my friend -_- then I have family problems which makes me a emotional cry baby which isn't a pretty picture, you know how some girls look still nice when they cry NOPE not for me...I look ugly aha and its not a pretty sight no I don't make noise I'm a silent crier.
Anyway I'm mainly just stress and get easily get off focus like Twitter messes me off because I love tweeting and I love talking to these two guys Esco and Wayne. Esco from Chicago who is just like me but smokes weed and a horn dog while Wayne is from The United Kingdom(I like saying The United Kingdom it sound badass) anyway I enjoy talking to them and Facebook well I don't go on much only to make a big announcement about something like how no one text me because my battery completely died so I had to order a new one and wait a couple of weeks which sucks since my phone is my life. ON THE PLUS SIDE: I don't see texts from Jason which is a good thing.
So now I'm quite annoyed they're certain people in my class who is really bothering me and very immature I won't say which class but dam If you think I have a bad mouth listening to them every sentence has a curse word wow your cool -_- underclassmen are so immature and annoying.
My world is crashing down and I know "That's what every teenager says" but like come on its true for most of us we have to work hard to get somewhere in life (IT'S NOT EASY!!!!) I would love to see an adult try this for awhile to be in my shoes for 2 weeks and see what it feel to be me, because being me honestly sucks. I also know I sound like a cry baby but considering I stay quiet half the time blogging is my time to scream what I feel!
I have school drama with homework and articles and all that fun stuff and with my friends who are pissing me off more and more each day they should honestly be ashamed to say they're my friend -_- then I have family problems which makes me a emotional cry baby which isn't a pretty picture, you know how some girls look still nice when they cry NOPE not for me...I look ugly aha and its not a pretty sight no I don't make noise I'm a silent crier.
Anyway I'm mainly just stress and get easily get off focus like Twitter messes me off because I love tweeting and I love talking to these two guys Esco and Wayne. Esco from Chicago who is just like me but smokes weed and a horn dog while Wayne is from The United Kingdom(I like saying The United Kingdom it sound badass) anyway I enjoy talking to them and Facebook well I don't go on much only to make a big announcement about something like how no one text me because my battery completely died so I had to order a new one and wait a couple of weeks which sucks since my phone is my life. ON THE PLUS SIDE: I don't see texts from Jason which is a good thing.
So now I'm quite annoyed they're certain people in my class who is really bothering me and very immature I won't say which class but dam If you think I have a bad mouth listening to them every sentence has a curse word wow your cool -_- underclassmen are so immature and annoying.
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