I wish I never knew my dad

As harsh as that sounds I really wish I didn't know my dad I'm mean who would want too? I'll tell you my reasons in why I don't like the man and why I wish my parents would get a divorce but nope my mom won't file for one when she doesn't like him much either, for one what kind of father calls his own daughter a b****? or yell at them claiming how stupid they are and worthless how would anyone feel to have a father bring them down all the time and makes you want to cry.

My dad is a heartless man he's cruel and rude and ass hole I hate him I hate seeing his face I hate looking at him or hearing him I hate bring near him I hate everything about him I hate everything about him yet I have some traits from him unfortunately and I hate  myself for it everyday to act like that selfish monster I hate him. He always so mean and the look he gives me when he's mad at me its like he was to kill me.

Like sometimes I want to go out I don't care if I have to go with my parents I just want out my house but every time I ask he says no and or gives me a look and if looks can kill I would be dead a long as time ago. like one time I was in my mom's room with her watching TV while I was on the laptop doing a power point and he comes in and gives me the most evilest look in the world and says "Get out my room I don't want to see your fucking face" usually I wouldn't care but having that man say that to me pissed me off.

I so badly wanted to say the feeling is mutual daddy but I keep my tongue in and just said wow and walked out and then today in the morning he yells me at me because the dog used her pad to pee on and he has a heart attack and screams at me that I'm a lazy no good worthless and stupid always those words stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!!!! that's all I heard from my dad how stupid I am.

And people wonder why I'm such a bitter girl oh he also said I'll get my punishment tonight lets see what he's gonna do to me.

Only sometimes tells you over and over and over again how stupid you are....you start thinking maybe you are stupid after all. I wish that man would disappear already so I never see his face again.